Dreams for the Future

I'm gonna take time out of my gloomy days to talk about more positive things.  Let's pretend that everything will work out fine, and will be awesome! :D

I'm going to apply for SSI.  Eventually, I'll succeed and start getting disability cheques.  There's this lovely little apartment complex a few miles away that I have just fallen in love with!!  The most expensive room they have available doesn't seem ridiculously priced, and I think I can afford it.  It's a wonderful place with two bedrooms and two bathrooms--just perfect for a young couple starting out on their own!  Two bathrooms are a necessity for us, as the probability of us both needing to "go" at the same time is relatively high.  A second bedroom will be nice, as I sometimes need time to myself.

If I can, I'll bring my three ferrets and my rat.  By then, I'll either have my service dog, or be in the process of getting her.  Thankfully pet deposits don't apply to service animals, or I'd be broke!! @_@  I just can't wait to gain my independence! :D  Even though I'll be paying all of the bills (except electricity), it still sounds better than wasting away in my room at my in-laws' house. :(

I talked to my dad, and he said that I could get my old bed from when I was a kid.  He kinda took it over after I stopped visiting as often, because it's in the coolest room of the house  (my dad and I overheat easily), so it's nice that he's giving it up for me. :)

I have absolutely no idea how much SSI will even pay me, but it has to be enough for me to survive, right?  So hopefully everything will work out fine.  Getting a service dog will be expensive, especially because I'm being such a damn rebel about it. >_>  Retrievers actually scare me...I'm not really sure why.  I decided I wanted an Akita (the Japanese breed, not American), but they are headstrong and can be hard to train.  So, first, I need to find a puppy with a calm, obedient personality...who's also healthy, comes from good breeding, etc.  I've already chosen my trainer; a professional, and blunt-yet-not-rude man in Atlanta.

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NEWS FLASH!!  I've been trying to contact a breeder in Florida, and I FINALLY got a response after weeks of waiting.  The puppies are a bit expensive, but I DON'T CARE, I'LL FIGURE IT OUT!!!!!  What I'm EXTREMELY sad about, is that the current litter is completely spoken for.  I'll have to wait HALF A YEAR ;________________;  I'm so tired of waiting...*sob*  I'm so happy-sad....Please God, let this work out pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaseeeeeee..!!!!! D':