I almost forgot to post this!! I went to the Social Security Administration the other day, and FINALLY applied for SSI. It'll be a few months before I'm processed, and get my call to go in for evaluation. I'm praying it goes well. I'd much rather not have to go to court...oh God, my stage fright would KILL me........sad to say, such a thing might work in my favor, considering anxiety is the root of half my problems...
I'll try to keep you posted!
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Forgiveness
I'm sitting in a Starbucks just off the road in the middle of the city. My fiance was kind enough to take me with him to work today, since I was worried he would get into a wreck due to the icy roads. He dropped me off, and went down the street to a customer's office.
Anyway, I'm sitting at a little table by the door (which wafts freezing cold air at me every time someone comes or goes!). I'm in my wheelchair, I'm really thirsty, and I kinda have to pee...TMI, perhaps, but I can't leave all my stuff out--especially this laptop--while I go 'take care of business'.
As far as I can tell, there is only one handicapped parking space, and it sits right out the window before me. I've watched people come and go from that space, some that didn't appear to need it. I won't judge, as I of all people should know what it's like to suffer an unseen illness. One lady admitted to me that she did in fact park there under false pretenses. She saw me sitting here in my chair, and felt shame for what she had done. Even though her car was acting up, and it was the closest open space to the door, she told me what she had done was wrong.
Of course I forgave her! My policy is to forgive those who seek forgiveness with sincerity. Sadly, it's led me to forgive repeat offenders, but at least they mean their apologies at the time. We chatted for a short while before she left. She asked about my illness, acknowledging that I did not have to answer, and I told her a little bit about it. I didn't want to go on and on about all the problems I have, so I just mentioned the wheelchair-worthy part. She was very kind, forward-thinking, and redeemable. I said a prayer after she left that she safely reach her destinations.
Anyway, I'm sitting at a little table by the door (which wafts freezing cold air at me every time someone comes or goes!). I'm in my wheelchair, I'm really thirsty, and I kinda have to pee...TMI, perhaps, but I can't leave all my stuff out--especially this laptop--while I go 'take care of business'.
As far as I can tell, there is only one handicapped parking space, and it sits right out the window before me. I've watched people come and go from that space, some that didn't appear to need it. I won't judge, as I of all people should know what it's like to suffer an unseen illness. One lady admitted to me that she did in fact park there under false pretenses. She saw me sitting here in my chair, and felt shame for what she had done. Even though her car was acting up, and it was the closest open space to the door, she told me what she had done was wrong.
Of course I forgave her! My policy is to forgive those who seek forgiveness with sincerity. Sadly, it's led me to forgive repeat offenders, but at least they mean their apologies at the time. We chatted for a short while before she left. She asked about my illness, acknowledging that I did not have to answer, and I told her a little bit about it. I didn't want to go on and on about all the problems I have, so I just mentioned the wheelchair-worthy part. She was very kind, forward-thinking, and redeemable. I said a prayer after she left that she safely reach her destinations.
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