HE GOT ME POKEMON X FOR OUR ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *flails* Gaaaah, I'm never gonna put my 3DS down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
I'm LOVING it so far!! Sure it could still be improved, but considering what Nintendo has already done with this game, I'm hardly complaining! Reviews to come!! <3
Friday, October 18, 2013
Anniversary
Oh yeah, btw. Today's our anniversary~ 8 years ago today, my darling asked me out for the first time! The moment I saw him, it was love at first sight. I gathered my courage to speak to him, and we became fast friends. A few days later, he asked me out in the cutest, dorkiest way: "So, are we official?"
I love you, sweetie!!! Happy Anniversary!
(P.S. We should have gotten married today, but we were nowhere near ready. Maybe next year..)
I love you, sweetie!!! Happy Anniversary!
(P.S. We should have gotten married today, but we were nowhere near ready. Maybe next year..)
Physical Health (and a little craziness)
I've been meaning to post a blog for a while, but I keep forgetting! Ok, I'll get to the point. I'm hovering around 250lbs at 5'5" tall. I'm pear-shaped, so I'm actually not as bad as you may be thinking. I AM waaaaay overweight, though, and somehow...I've decided enough is enough.
I started a new diet and exercise plan on Wednesday Oct. 16, 2013. I'm paying close attention to what I put into my body, and I'm walking a few miles every day. It might be a bit excessive, but I'm either completely lazy, or I HAVE to push myself beyond my limits. Sucky for someone who appreciates balance and moderation.
I'll be checking in next Wednesday to see if I've made any progress, yet. I'll probably have to be more patient, but we'll see.
Some problems I've noticed are as follows: I get really cold for the rest of the evening after exercising (and I'm NEVER cold); I get REALLY manic...like going crazy, cannot wind down no matter what, and go back and forth between extreme anxiety and extreme depression. I'm either so antsy I want to kill myself, or I feel so hopeless that I do. Will talk to the psychiatrist about this; I don't think it has anything to do with my medication, and I hope it doesn't.
I started a new diet and exercise plan on Wednesday Oct. 16, 2013. I'm paying close attention to what I put into my body, and I'm walking a few miles every day. It might be a bit excessive, but I'm either completely lazy, or I HAVE to push myself beyond my limits. Sucky for someone who appreciates balance and moderation.
I'll be checking in next Wednesday to see if I've made any progress, yet. I'll probably have to be more patient, but we'll see.
Some problems I've noticed are as follows: I get really cold for the rest of the evening after exercising (and I'm NEVER cold); I get REALLY manic...like going crazy, cannot wind down no matter what, and go back and forth between extreme anxiety and extreme depression. I'm either so antsy I want to kill myself, or I feel so hopeless that I do. Will talk to the psychiatrist about this; I don't think it has anything to do with my medication, and I hope it doesn't.
Friday, October 11, 2013
AWA
Anime Weekend Atlanta. (as promised!)
It's a pretty self-explanatory convention of, maybe, medium size. As is implied, it focuses mainly on Japanese animation, with many panels and events centered around the viewing and trivia thereof. It's a place where geeks are encouraged to dress up as their favorite characters, and introverts are coaxed out of their shells. Gamers of all sorts are welcomed warmly, whether they favor computer, video, or table-top. Artists and crafters are encouraged to show their work, and often end up at the Artist Alley to buy and sell each other's creations! Being an artist, myself, I would love to end up in there, some day (and actually make sales...that helps).
Most years I would wander around and not really go anywhere except the Dealer's Room (it's like a mall full of geeky awesome!) and the Con Suite (a place to relax and recharge and get free snacks). It was enough for me, but this year I decided to pack my schedule full of panels instead! I went to ones that gave advice on how to better sell one's art, ones that talked about some of my favorite anime, casting and molding tutorials (I think it was resin), and a horror panel--that one was the most fun! Most people should say "Omg, that's great, good for you! You should do this every year! :D"...and I say "HELL NO!!!"
I admit that the panels were informative, and I don't regret going to them for that reason, but they ruined my con!!! I'm an INTROVERT, and going to packed rooms to sit and focus for hours is OVER STIMULATION. I felt awful after con, and felt like I had wasted it. If only AWA was longer...maybe with a few days that had NO panels I was interested in! :P I feel like I'm suffering now for my later benefit, I just wish I didn't have to suffer during my favorite part of the year. ~le sigh~
It's a pretty self-explanatory convention of, maybe, medium size. As is implied, it focuses mainly on Japanese animation, with many panels and events centered around the viewing and trivia thereof. It's a place where geeks are encouraged to dress up as their favorite characters, and introverts are coaxed out of their shells. Gamers of all sorts are welcomed warmly, whether they favor computer, video, or table-top. Artists and crafters are encouraged to show their work, and often end up at the Artist Alley to buy and sell each other's creations! Being an artist, myself, I would love to end up in there, some day (and actually make sales...that helps).
Most years I would wander around and not really go anywhere except the Dealer's Room (it's like a mall full of geeky awesome!) and the Con Suite (a place to relax and recharge and get free snacks). It was enough for me, but this year I decided to pack my schedule full of panels instead! I went to ones that gave advice on how to better sell one's art, ones that talked about some of my favorite anime, casting and molding tutorials (I think it was resin), and a horror panel--that one was the most fun! Most people should say "Omg, that's great, good for you! You should do this every year! :D"...and I say "HELL NO!!!"
I admit that the panels were informative, and I don't regret going to them for that reason, but they ruined my con!!! I'm an INTROVERT, and going to packed rooms to sit and focus for hours is OVER STIMULATION. I felt awful after con, and felt like I had wasted it. If only AWA was longer...maybe with a few days that had NO panels I was interested in! :P I feel like I'm suffering now for my later benefit, I just wish I didn't have to suffer during my favorite part of the year. ~le sigh~
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Big Steps!!
I just checked the map, and technically the parks ARE connected! They have different names, but it doesn't make much of a difference. I have to go through the neighborhood, and then about the same distance to the park with the swing set. Gosh, I wonder if it's safe though...(did I really just say "gosh"..??) I'm scared, but I guess...charge my phone, leave a note, pack a few water bottles, maybe some music or something? I don't exactly have an ipod (I don't have an "i"anything, except a little macbook compact mirror, which is the coolest thing, btw), but I do have a really old mp3 player! It's small, perhaps bulky by today's standards, and you put these little floppy disc looking things in that have the music on them! :D I think I found it, recently, so that's something!
Baby Steps...
I'm an introvert; socially awkward, and a bit of an agoraphobe. I was pretty much raised to be paranoid, so I look kinda like a rat when I go out on my own; always on edge, looking around to make sure no one's sneaking up on me to mug me or worse. When strangers stop for a friendly hello, I think I'm about to die. It's ridiculous!! I'm trying to get over it, though. My house is situated at the end of the neighborhood, beside a busy road, and smack dab in the middle of two bridges! One goes over the highway, and the other over a creek. By that creek is a park, and since it's so close, I've taken to walking there every day. (And by everyday, I mean the last two days LOL)
Over the last several months, the government made a big hoohah by taking down our fence and claiming to "widen the road" when they were really just paving a sidewalk. Well, both turned out to be a mixed blessing. I'd never dream of walking on that busy road to get to the park a few blocks away, and the little make-shift fence they put up is short enough for me to step over. My in-laws tend to be asleep when I go, so I write a note on the fridge saying where I've gone and my cell # (I don't expect them to remember something they never use), and "sneak" out the back door. I keep thinking someone's going to call the cops for "breaking into" my own home! xD
This park has wide open spaces and a little, sun-faded playground, but no swing set. And I LOVE to swing. I haven't explored the entirety of it, yet, but I'll get there. At the other end of the neighborhood, and quite a ways in the same direction, there's another park! I've always believed the two to be connected, but I haven't confirmed that yet. I'm going to check google maps to see exactly how far away it is, and what turns (if any) I need to make to get there. It DOES have a swing set, and I'll exercise plenty to get to it, so it may well be worth the walk. I'm just so darn scared of going alone!!! Oh well, people do this kind of thing everyday, so what's stopping me? Wish me luck and safety, guys! <3
Over the last several months, the government made a big hoohah by taking down our fence and claiming to "widen the road" when they were really just paving a sidewalk. Well, both turned out to be a mixed blessing. I'd never dream of walking on that busy road to get to the park a few blocks away, and the little make-shift fence they put up is short enough for me to step over. My in-laws tend to be asleep when I go, so I write a note on the fridge saying where I've gone and my cell # (I don't expect them to remember something they never use), and "sneak" out the back door. I keep thinking someone's going to call the cops for "breaking into" my own home! xD
This park has wide open spaces and a little, sun-faded playground, but no swing set. And I LOVE to swing. I haven't explored the entirety of it, yet, but I'll get there. At the other end of the neighborhood, and quite a ways in the same direction, there's another park! I've always believed the two to be connected, but I haven't confirmed that yet. I'm going to check google maps to see exactly how far away it is, and what turns (if any) I need to make to get there. It DOES have a swing set, and I'll exercise plenty to get to it, so it may well be worth the walk. I'm just so darn scared of going alone!!! Oh well, people do this kind of thing everyday, so what's stopping me? Wish me luck and safety, guys! <3
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Feeling kinda icky
It's been 4 days since I started my medication (Sertraline) at half dose. I'm not sure how soon side-effects kick in, but I've been having some intestinal problems and dry mouth. I think it's unrelated, but better to document it just in case. I've been having bad sleep for so long, I don't think the meds have anything to do it (though I suppose they could be amplifying the problem). I miss restful sleep...it feels like a weak level of Hell sometimes, the way I suffer. That sounds like a self-absorbed, over reaction. *sigh*
Isn't it weird how it's harder to drink when dehydrated? I thought I was drinking plenty, but now it's happened again. Maybe it's just me, but I'll keep forcing down healthy amounts of water 'til I feel better, however long that'll be! :P
Isn't it weird how it's harder to drink when dehydrated? I thought I was drinking plenty, but now it's happened again. Maybe it's just me, but I'll keep forcing down healthy amounts of water 'til I feel better, however long that'll be! :P
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Please Save My Earth
I had seen the anime several times as a child. It's quite beautiful, and serious, and a bit of a tear-jerker. It ends abruptly and intentionally, probably because they did not have the budget to continue it. I read the entire manga series over the last two days. What can I say? It's an amazing, in-depth, and beautiful narrative! I just couldn't put it down! The characters are so complex, so real, they speak to my soul. I will admit that I am a bit dissatisfied with the conclusion in many respects, but I think the result was one of the best possible.
It deals with a lot of strong topics, such as religion, reincarnation, alien civilization, ESP, age difference, etc; and may be considered taboo in some ways. Still, I HIGHLY recommend both the manga and the OVA!! The anime will draw you in, leaving you wanting more, and when you read the manga...that's when you'll truly learn the depth of the characters. There's a lot of raw emotion, so it's difficult to describe.
It deals with a lot of strong topics, such as religion, reincarnation, alien civilization, ESP, age difference, etc; and may be considered taboo in some ways. Still, I HIGHLY recommend both the manga and the OVA!! The anime will draw you in, leaving you wanting more, and when you read the manga...that's when you'll truly learn the depth of the characters. There's a lot of raw emotion, so it's difficult to describe.
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Appointment
I just got home from my first session with my new psychiatrist! I'm relieved to say that she was an absolute joy, and as awkward as I was feeling, her presence and demeanor kept me calm.
We discussed medication for my depression and anxiety, and the possibility of a psychiatric service dog was touched on. My next appointment is 3 weeks away (I wish it was sooner!!), and I'm sure we'll talk more about it then. I'm going to send her an e-mail listing my daily struggles so she can review and determine the next course of action. We talked about some of the reasons as to why I suffer from anxiety and depression, mostly my shaky family life, some emotional abuse I've suffered, etc.
Her office is in the middle of the city, and it's about an hour's drive, not counting traffic...and there was a LOT of traffic! We spent an annoyingly long amount of time finding public parking, but we didn't have to pay for our spot (the church covered us, how wonderful)!
I have two blog posts I'm working on, that are a bit late. I am just so worn out from the convention, I can barely concentrate on what I'm typing right now! Plus I feel so nauseous...ugh. I'll get to them ASAP, though~
We discussed medication for my depression and anxiety, and the possibility of a psychiatric service dog was touched on. My next appointment is 3 weeks away (I wish it was sooner!!), and I'm sure we'll talk more about it then. I'm going to send her an e-mail listing my daily struggles so she can review and determine the next course of action. We talked about some of the reasons as to why I suffer from anxiety and depression, mostly my shaky family life, some emotional abuse I've suffered, etc.
Her office is in the middle of the city, and it's about an hour's drive, not counting traffic...and there was a LOT of traffic! We spent an annoyingly long amount of time finding public parking, but we didn't have to pay for our spot (the church covered us, how wonderful)!
I have two blog posts I'm working on, that are a bit late. I am just so worn out from the convention, I can barely concentrate on what I'm typing right now! Plus I feel so nauseous...ugh. I'll get to them ASAP, though~
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