Really Poor

I, like many folks nowadays (and all-the-days, I guess), am really poor.  My lack of concentration, in part, led to my dropping out of high school in the 11th grade, too embarrassed to be held back.  For how awful my life was growing up, I was also very sheltered.  I had no skills, hardly any free will, no education...and these days, am too fatigued from stress to go to the store, let alone a job.  I moved out of my mother's house when I was 19, and in with my fiance.  My in-laws shouldn't have to take care of me, even less because they're poor also.  In fact, our families are just poor in general (at least the ones who care).

My fiance works two related jobs that he loves and who love him, but even that's not enough to support us.  Thank God we don't have to pay rent or anything like that, besides a small car payment.  My panic attacks have gotten so bad, as of late, that his primary boss decided to give him a day off during the week indefinitely just to care for me! :(

What I've been trying to lead up to with all this, is the harrowing fact that I cannot reasonably afford healthcare of any kind.  My mother was jobless until recently, and her insurance won't kick in for a while, and she doesn't know if she can put me on it because she lives in a different state.  I forget why I can't be on my father's insurance (probably because it's not the end of the year yet, or something like that).  My fiance doesn't have insurance, and his father can't put me on his either.  His mother is actually disabled due to neck and back trauma.  I am currently unable to work, and the knowledge of all this puts me into a stressful death spiral.

There is a ray of light in the darkness, however!!  There are physicians and psychiatrists that work on sliding pay scales, and we found a local woman to see me!  I just have to make it until October 2, 2013! :)  I haven't had a physical nor a dental cleaning in years now, but at the moment I feel my mental health is more important.  I FEEL disabled, but I'm not a professional nor an expert.  We'll see soon enough if this woman believes so or not.  If I am, then I need to work on getting my state ID renewed and applying for benefits, but I'm not holding my breath on that.  I'm sure I'll be able to get on my father's insurance at the end of the year, or something, then we can save up for co-pays to see all the doctors I need to patch me up! @_@